Unrequoited West Coast Love

I am mentally exhausted from eking my way through life. The pattern of creative financing and the (much appreciated) help of others, and supportive friends has served as my saving grace. Living in Southern California is grossly overrated. Everything costs more here… insurance, gas, rent and utilities. It is with a heavy heart that I have come to the conclusion that my time residing here in San Diego must come to an end. Although I love it here, this is my native city; I also cannot help but to be excited at the prospect of a new start as a single woman.

I have spent 20 wonderful years being a mother, sister, friend and daughter, some years also wearing the title of student, wife, and volunteer. My habit has been to be ritually heroic, always taking care of others. Although I have no regrets, I also anticipate what new doors will open in my future. Experiencing life in a new city in another geographical region; learning diverse cultures and exploring unchartered territory appeals to me. Living out dreams I have put on a back burner for two decades, to travel and broaden my horizons.

It is time to let my wings spread and leave the comfort of my natural habitat and be independent. I am ready to rejuvenate my lifestyle and shake things up, seize the day and live like the exoteric gypsy I have always wanted to be. This 30 something is anticipating the next era of her life.

Living Life with No Regrets

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or to help you figure out whom you are or whom you want to become. You never know who these people may be but when you lock eyes with them, you know at that very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.

Some people come into our lives and quickly go. Some people move our souls to dance. They awaken us to new understanding with the passing whisper of their wisdom. Some people make the sky more beautiful to gaze upon.

They stay in our lives for awhile, leave footprints in our hearts, and we are never, ever the same. And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart. Everything happens for a reason, nothing happens by chance or by means of luck. Illness, injury, love, lost, moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless. The people you meet who affect your life and the success and downfalls you experience help to create who you become.

Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and import ones. If someone hurts you, or breaks your heart, forgive them, for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love and how to open your heart and eyes to things.

Make every day count!! Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right to. Tell yourself you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don't believe in yourself; it will be hard for others to believe in you.

You can make of your life anything you wish. Create your own life then go out and live it with ABSOLUTELY no regrets.