It started out great... as long as I was willing to drive you wherever, basically WHENever you needed. I paid for everything because I believed you when you said you were waiting on a new debt card, which just HAPPENED to have been lost at the same time we were supposed to split the cost of a hotel room.
I cooked for you, brought you lunch and coffee, washed your cloths, drove you to work at times, to haircuts, and even brought you downtown to party with your friends-no questions asked. I did all this out of the goodness of my heart, willingly, on my own free will. You actually ASKED me for very little. I have no regrets. I cared for you so much I just wanted to make your daily routine as easy as possible.
What you gave in return was chivalry. Opening doors, constantly being affectionate, being complimentary, saying all the right things about being ready for a relationship, meeting my kids, even being friends with my son.
But I'll tell you where you slipped up. Telling me about your friend who is using an older woman. I don't think you realize how much you appeared to find humor and admiration in his actions. Your face betrayed you and gave you away. Men like this are like wolfs circling the herd looking to pick off the most vulnerable. Suddenly the age difference between us seemed a real issue whereas before it didn't matter much to me.
Perhaps this is how you saw me. Perhaps not. I see myself as an average-to-cute looking, sensitive, older woman with "baggage" and a heart as wide as the ocean. My "baggage" is the love I have for my kids and choice to always make them my priority. I have a lot to offer and try to see the best in people. I think you used this fact to your advantage. Preying on my generosity, my willingness and my accessibility.
Now you have access to your finances again and a vehicle of your own, so your need for me is void. After all, you said it yourself, you are the "best." (Although I still think you need a reality check on this. Believe me, I have had bigger, better more sincere all at once) I'm sure you have females coming at you left and right offering themselves. I hope one of the will genuinely offer you everything I gave, and doing this innately from a sense of respect and dedication, NOT for what they think they will get out of you.
Next time I do all these things it will be with much more trepidation and the poor man will probably have to walk over coals to convince me he is sincere. And FYI, if you know I read your facebook wall, why would you respond to "Don't ya wish your girlfriend was hot like me" with "Yea, I do lol". But have no worries, I have never had a lack of male attention so I am relatively secure in the looks dept. Now I'm moving on... someone will appreciate all the loving things I do and the genuine heart I offer.
